Untitld (for now)

I am lost amongst
the flakes
of this new year's
aches
no one hears
the heart's call
for my smile is so small
and cannot part the lips
to liberate the words
your thoughts cover up your ears
you cannot hear
no one hears
the heartbeat's call
the words imprisoned by a smile
too small
yet indestructible wall
of despair
the need of you needs air
the need of you is deeply in need
for a spot
where you and I
can meet
where your thought
is my thought and my thought
doesn't bleed.

Good Guy

How many times has she said “I love you"??
Do you know how many times has she said 
“I only want to be with you"??

More than you can imagine,
More than you see,
More than you even really want to believe.

Smokers, drinkers, and addicts too,
Not all will cause problems, but many do.
With issues in the family and issues in the home,
Issues with money, they are never alone.

They will lie and cheat and use you too
Looking after their needs is all they do.
Making you think you can’t live without,
Until you start getting boring, then you’re out.

They may be more outgoing and more fun
Often when they are high, they don’t know what they’ve done.
But if you actually want a relationship that will last,
Leave those guys in your past.

The nice guys can be fun too if you give us a chance,
The more experience we have, the more we advance.
But the more you ignore us and leave us behind,
When you come looking for us, we will be harder to find.

Because eventually we will find someone who will appreciate us for whom we are
While you’re sitting at home wishing that you didn’t go that far.
When your guy dumped you because he got scared,
While we sit there and become millionaires.

I hate to be there when you realized I was right
I try to warn you but you just put up a big fight.
All I can say is I hope I am wrong. 
But more often than not, my predictions prove strong. 

I know that some people can change for the good,
But why don’t you wait and see, like you really should.
because you all deserve much better than that
That’s not just my opinion, that’s a fact!

BAD GUY

So everything I'll ever do will be forever seen
And forever read as forever red not ever green 
When I'm as fresher and sharper than pine needles 
You as human as me but say that I'm evil 
That I'm a devil for not bein on your level 
That I'm attractin negativity like magnets to metal 
Like what I talk about is the Satan speech 
But I'm saved by the blood not the bell so stop hatin, Screech 
I've been speakin my outer and inner teachings 
And give eager readers some kind of a reaching 
And they take my hand cuz they understand 
That though I'm not God, I am not above man 
So you suckas can swallow, it's so fucked up that you follow 
The herd like sheep but that sucks as a motto 
To live by, die by, abide by, and that's why 
I don't see you as heroes so you nuthin to the bad guy

A New Life

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.

Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent.

You Loved Me

I haven't seen you in a while
I haven't seen your smile
The one who lured me with her charms
is not with me, but in another's arms
Now what am I supposed to do?
I can't think about the good times
when you spoke the lover's lines
I can't think at all tonight,
I just wonder why?
Why do you love him and not me?
I love you, don't you see?
These thoughts cloud my mind
Did our love make me blind?
I just lay here because I can't sleep
Thinking of promises you couldn't keep
What did I do that changed your heart?
What was it that brought us apart?
I think of the words you whispered
The ones that no one else would hear
now those words are whispered to him
Words that in my heart i held so dear
You knew I loved you
I thought you loved me too
But when I see you with him,,
it makes me remember
how things used to be
When you said you loved me.

Love S.O.S

Onto the sea
I sailed my boat
And prayed that it
Would stay afloat

From dawn til dusk
From dusk til dawn
In search of love
I drifted on

What happened then
I don't recall
I think it was
A sudden squall

For when I awoke
I thought I died
At the sight of an angel
At my side

But lucky for me
That was not true
For I found love
And love was you.

I can't make you love me

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
Inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close
Don't patronize
Don't patronize

'Cause I can't make you love me
If you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Something it won't
Here in the dark
In this final hour
Imma lay down my heart
And feel the power if you want
No you won't

I'll close my eyes
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're holding me
Mornin' will come
And I'll do, I'll try
Just give me till then
To give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me
If you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Somethin it won't
Here in the dark
In these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And feel the power if you want
No you won't